Miss me when I'm not there .

You may not be my first , my last or my only . I loved before I may love again . But if I loves you now , what else matters ?? I'm not perfect - you aren't either and the two of us may never be perfect together but if I can make you laugh cause you think twice and admit to being human and making mistakes , hold onto myself and give me the most you can . I may not be thinking about you every second of the day but I will give you a part of me that I knows you can break my heart . So don't hurt me , don't change me , don't analyze and don't expect more than I can give . Smile when I makes you happy , let me know when I makes you mad and miss me when I'm not there anymore forever . =))

Kerinduan dan Cintaku cuma buat Mu Tuhan

Saya tahu saya bisa berbohong pada semua orang namun saya tidak bisa bohong dengan hati dan perasaan saya . Selama 2 tahun saya tidak mempunyai hubungan apa2 dengan mana2 lelaki dan saya serahkan seluruh hati dan hidup saya sama Tuhan . Saya benar2 merasakan cinta Nya . Saya tenang dan selalu dekat padaNya . Dan jujur saya benar2 merindui Tuhan . Setiap saat saya merindui . Tuhan Yesus sudah memulihkan saya dari semua penderitaan saya selama ini . Saya tenang ketika melalui satu persatu dugaan ini . Ya Tuhan tanpa Mu saya tidak mungkin seperti ini . Engkau melihat setiap inci dalam hidup saya . Setiap inci hati saya . Saya hanya mencintai Dia bukan manusia . Maafkan saya Bapa tapi Engkau terdahulu melihat hidup saya . Saya serahkan seluruh hidup saya kepada Mu dan saya persembahkan hidup saya untuk kemuliaan Mu . Pakai lah hidup saya Bapa sesuai dengan cara Mu bukan cara ku .

Hanya Tuhan yang mengenal hatiku

S'perti rusa yang haus ,

Rindu aliran sungai-Mu ,

Hatiku tak tahan menunggu-Mu ,
Bagai padang gersang ,

Menanti datangnya hujan begitu pun jiwaku Tuhan ,
Hanya Engkau ,
Pribadi yang mengenal hatiku ,
Tiada yang tersembunyi bagi-Mu ,
S'luruh isi hatiku kau tahu dan bawaku ,
Tuk lebih dekat lagi padaMu tinggal dalam indahnya dekapan kasih-Mu .

YOU'RE NOT MINE AND I'M NOT YOURS ANYMORE

thanks my EX , you have done well with your job in my life . You have make me realise that we can't together until we die as you have promise to me . God is good , He know everything that I need in my life not what I want . I just can says you should have responbility with your responbilities what you have now . I already forgive you all what you have done while we still called by GF and BF long time ago . Don't worry I never hate you as what on your mind . Without your hurting I won't like today . I won't be success to be stronger if not you . I really thankful for God for everything . And I wanna says too I'm so sorry with all my mistakes that I ever done to you . I'm not like others only know how to blame someone therefore I also know that I also have made a mistakes .
I know I still young to know what a LOVE meaning but I'm too mature what I've feel . Maybe I'm too much hoping with our relationship and the last I'm hurt too much . But thank you so much because made me stronger now ! 3 years we build our relationship and the last you destroy it yourself . You have someone that more better than me and I let you go because of your happiness . 2 years I'm single , 2 years I have to through on without a lover anymore . It is not easy but atleast I know how hurt when someone we love hurt us . I never regrets to fall in love with you . I never regrets to know you because of you I know what a meaning LOVE called by VELANTINE .
My wish only one as the 1st I've let you go is  , I only want God shower you many many more happiness in your life and your family . I'm happy when I see you are happy . Thanks for everything .