01.12. 2011

GONNA MISS MY ENGINEER COMPANY !

13 . SEPTEMBER .2010 -

01 . DECEMBER .2011

Miss me when I'm not there .

You may not be my first , my last or my only . I loved before I may love again . But if I loves you now , what else matters ?? I'm not perfect - you aren't either and the two of us may never be perfect together but if I can make you laugh cause you think twice and admit to being human and making mistakes , hold onto myself and give me the most you can . I may not be thinking about you every second of the day but I will give you a part of me that I knows you can break my heart . So don't hurt me , don't change me , don't analyze and don't expect more than I can give . Smile when I makes you happy , let me know when I makes you mad and miss me when I'm not there anymore forever . =))

Kerinduan dan Cintaku cuma buat Mu Tuhan

Saya tahu saya bisa berbohong pada semua orang namun saya tidak bisa bohong dengan hati dan perasaan saya . Selama 2 tahun saya tidak mempunyai hubungan apa2 dengan mana2 lelaki dan saya serahkan seluruh hati dan hidup saya sama Tuhan . Saya benar2 merasakan cinta Nya . Saya tenang dan selalu dekat padaNya . Dan jujur saya benar2 merindui Tuhan . Setiap saat saya merindui . Tuhan Yesus sudah memulihkan saya dari semua penderitaan saya selama ini . Saya tenang ketika melalui satu persatu dugaan ini . Ya Tuhan tanpa Mu saya tidak mungkin seperti ini . Engkau melihat setiap inci dalam hidup saya . Setiap inci hati saya . Saya hanya mencintai Dia bukan manusia . Maafkan saya Bapa tapi Engkau terdahulu melihat hidup saya . Saya serahkan seluruh hidup saya kepada Mu dan saya persembahkan hidup saya untuk kemuliaan Mu . Pakai lah hidup saya Bapa sesuai dengan cara Mu bukan cara ku .

Hanya Tuhan yang mengenal hatiku

S'perti rusa yang haus ,

Rindu aliran sungai-Mu ,

Hatiku tak tahan menunggu-Mu ,
Bagai padang gersang ,

Menanti datangnya hujan begitu pun jiwaku Tuhan ,
Hanya Engkau ,
Pribadi yang mengenal hatiku ,
Tiada yang tersembunyi bagi-Mu ,
S'luruh isi hatiku kau tahu dan bawaku ,
Tuk lebih dekat lagi padaMu tinggal dalam indahnya dekapan kasih-Mu .

YOU'RE NOT MINE AND I'M NOT YOURS ANYMORE

thanks my EX , you have done well with your job in my life . You have make me realise that we can't together until we die as you have promise to me . God is good , He know everything that I need in my life not what I want . I just can says you should have responbility with your responbilities what you have now . I already forgive you all what you have done while we still called by GF and BF long time ago . Don't worry I never hate you as what on your mind . Without your hurting I won't like today . I won't be success to be stronger if not you . I really thankful for God for everything . And I wanna says too I'm so sorry with all my mistakes that I ever done to you . I'm not like others only know how to blame someone therefore I also know that I also have made a mistakes .
I know I still young to know what a LOVE meaning but I'm too mature what I've feel . Maybe I'm too much hoping with our relationship and the last I'm hurt too much . But thank you so much because made me stronger now ! 3 years we build our relationship and the last you destroy it yourself . You have someone that more better than me and I let you go because of your happiness . 2 years I'm single , 2 years I have to through on without a lover anymore . It is not easy but atleast I know how hurt when someone we love hurt us . I never regrets to fall in love with you . I never regrets to know you because of you I know what a meaning LOVE called by VELANTINE .
My wish only one as the 1st I've let you go is  , I only want God shower you many many more happiness in your life and your family . I'm happy when I see you are happy . Thanks for everything .

Friend I love you all always and always

May my friendships always be . The most important thing to me, with special friends i feel I'm blessed ,
so let me give my very best . I want to do much more than share . The hopes and plans of friends who care ; I'll try all that a friend can do . To make their secret dreams come true . Let me use my heart to see , to realise
what friends can be and make no judgement from a far but love my friends the way they are .

Making friends for complete life is not important , But having a friend who fills up the incompleteness
in your life is important .

Ina , Ama upuson ku yokoyu baino om sogigisom

Mantad rinuol songulun o tondu ,
Haro koihadan om koimaian ,
Narangahan tihad do tanak ,
Nosusu id pomogunan .
Mantad nosusu gisom nosukod ,
Lisinu gumompi kasari ,
Mantad di gulu gisom sogigisom ,
Kosianan nu au olopusan .
Ina .... Ama ........
Kinogoho no sinding ku iti ,
Mulong kasasari oku popoihad yokoyu miampai iti sikap ku ,
Kasasari yokoyu hiti ginavo ku om sambayang ku .
Ipi-ipion ku kasasari kou daa bahagia .
Oi Ina , poingkuro oku nangku
mamalapus di koinsasanannu ,
Oi ama , lisinu om gompinu
Igitan ku gisom kapataion .
Upus ku yokoyu miagal waig id bawang au milo olopusan .
Yokoyu no id ginovo ku do sogigisom . 

The ghost of you

Summer's ended and without a trace ,

Time goes by while you remain , 

Funny how I thought I walked on through with my heart in one .
Why do I cry for you ,

Dying to get close to you,

Why do I still fear to face the ghost of you .
How I tried to get you of my mind but you return all the time ,
I believed I could just let you go like the fool I am .
I've been trying to release you ,
To get my feet back on the ground still I need my hope to hold on to even if I know I should
back away .
It's just a part of me that I can't erase . 

My wonderful day - 24.09.2011

Thanks God for my wonderful date & Day .
Really thankful for everything that have You given to me for last saturday God .
Eventhough I don't have to celebrate my birthday but everything I have received that day is

really wonderful .
I don't want anything that I want God but give anything that I need in my life .
I don't believe my age already 19 years old . Really don't believe I have live in this wonderful
world already 19 years old . Thank you Lord . Really thank you .
All I need is only peace and joy to be with You Lord .
Don't ever stopped to Loving me Lord cause I know I also always Love you !

Kini Ku Mampu tersenyum

=))
Kini saya mampu tersenyum walaupun belum sepenuhnya .
Manusia tidak pernah lari dari masalah begitu juga la dgn saya .
Beribu liku yang harus saya lalui dan kini saya mampu tersenyum .
Saya tahu kadangkala saya menjadi lemah dengan semua liku yang perit buat saya

namun saya juga tahu melalui liku-liku itu juga buat saya kuat seperti hari ini .
Terima kasih insan2 yang suda banyak bagi saya semangat dan dorongan .
Saya tak mampu membalas semua kebaikan kalian
namun satu hal yang saya mampu bagi cuma la DOA .
Terkadang manusia memerlukan benda yang mahal2 untuk di hadiahkan
kepda sesama namun saya tidak bisa berikan apa2 seperti orang lain
Saya hanya mampu berikan DOA . kerna saya tahu Doa lebih berharga dari apapun .
Kasih sayang melebihi apapun . Ucapan terima kasih mungkin tidak berharga buat kalian
Namun ia sangat berharga buat saya walaupun hanya sebuah ucapan .
Terima kasih dan terima kasih saya ucapkan . Tanpa kalian saya tidak jadi seperti hari ini .

" I want to say thank you to all the people who walked into my life and made it outstanding
and all the people who walked out of my life and made it fantastic ! "

Aku jatuh cinta pada Mu Yesus . Jangan pernah berhenti mencintai ku .

Beribu hari ku lalui
Bersama Engkau kekasih hatiku
Berliku jalan kulewati
Bersama Engkau dambaan jiwaku
Walau badai menghadang
dan ombak kan menerjang
Namun keyakinan ku
Kau kan s'lalu ada menopang hidup ku .
Jangan pernah berhenti mencintai ku

Yang ku tahu aku pun mengasihi Mu
Seharusnya ku tahu sejak dari dulu
Sehingga ku tak tersesat
Dan ku kan bertahan demi cinta Mu .

P/s : Cinta Yesus buat saya benar2 lengkap . Jangan pernah berhenti mencintaiku Yesus kerna saya tahu saya juga mengasihi Mu . Terima kasih Yesus atas cinta ini . Walaupun saya tahu saya tidak pernah sempurna
namun cinta Mu buat saya sempurna . Cinta Mu mengubah seluruh hidup ku . Yang dulu suram sekarang bercahaya . I love you Jesus =))

We are the reason

As little children we would dream of christmas morn
And all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives .

And we were the reason that He gave His life 

We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give 

To show us the reason to live .

As the years went by we learned more about gifts 

And giving of ourselves and what that means

On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
Because of love , because of love .

And we are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live .

I finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him .

And we are the reason that He  gave His life

We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live .

Friendship Never Dies

The friend in my adversity I shall always cherish most. I can better trust those who helped to relieve the gloom of my dark hours than those who are so ready to enjoy with me the sunshine of my prosperity.

Friends can help each other. A true friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself--and especially to feel. Or, not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at the moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to--letting a person be what he/she really is. 

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I wanna thank you to all of you for supporting me, cheer me up, make me smile and make me feel ALIVE bebeh!!

it is true about what you all been telling me about my life and it's not too late to change it, right?hehe

Everything happen always for a Reason and i just have to believe it and let go. Everyone of you here knows what kind of person i am since the begining so, why should and why must i scare of being judge wrongly, right?

I never forget all people who come in my life !

People always say : You have forget the old people who come in your life .
But for me I never forget them . Whoever come into my life I always remember .
Maybe I never contact or calling them but they always in my prayer .
I still keep loving all who ever come in my life . Never and never forget even that person

ever hurt me .
Only God know how I'm miss all who ever come in my life and lost contact until now .
I only know to pray so that we will meet someday . Life is still long and I wish I can meet you all 

if I still could meet you !
One thing I can say here : Whoever come into my life I always keep you all as my
Family and I always miss you !
 

They never stoped make me laugh and laugh !

God know what the better in His children life 

thats why He sent me called by " Friend "
Friends that only He know what a reason why He sent someone to someone life .
And THEY God sent to me . How ever I need them , they the first by myside and listen all

my problems . They never look my imperfect . They teach me the right way .
They wipe my tears , they make me smile .
They bring me out from the problems and the suffering .
They never fail to make me happy and smile .
They teach me what is mean LIFE .
Teach me to solve any stress .
Teach me how to balanced sadness and happiest .
 How glad i've them in my life

                                 they keep me as they youngest sister . I'm so glad and so glad with this

Stella , Me , Leon & Sara

Gene , Me , Stella , Leon , Atama
They always say : Thats what for friends ! And now I'm glad
to had you all in my life !

The day we together we always have fun together !
I never forget all the memories that you all have
give me !

The sporting cousin ! You too much give me
support and spirit to through this difficult life . Thanks Megg !
I never forget all your kindness !

Cinta tak semesti nya memiliki

Mengapa kita bertemu

Bila akhirnya dipisahkan

Mengapa kita berjumpa 

Tapi akhirnya dijauhkan

Kau bilang hatimu untuk aku

Nyatanya bukan aku

Bintang langit nan indah

Di manakah cinta yang dulu 

Masihkah aku di sana

Di relung hati dan mimpimu

Andai kan engkau di sini

Andaikan tetap denganku

Aku hancur , ku kan terluka
Namun engkau lah nafasku
Kau cintaku meski aku bukan di benakmu lagi

dan sungguh ku beruntung sempat memilikimu 

walaupun hanya sementara

Engkau sempat menyatakan 

Merindukan diriku lagi

Ingin ku sampaikan ku tak hanya sekadar itu ~

p/s : I learn that love it doesn't mean we can be together . Love is full of sacrifice , tears and hurting .
And I also learn True Love mean is when someone we love  love somebody and we have to let
him go for their happiness . God never break His promise to us ! When we separate that is mean God
have promise the better one for us or better life for us !

Jangan terlalu mencari kesempurnaan

Jika kamu memancing ikan....

Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,

hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....

Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia

semula ke dalam air begitu saja....

Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya

ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga ........

Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN

kepada seseorang...

Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....

Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....

Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu

dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. ...

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,

jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....

cukuplah sekadar KEPERLUANmu. ..

Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula.... Akhirnya ia dibuang....

Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang,

TERIMALAH seadanya....

Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu ISTIMEWA....

Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. ...

akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.

Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...

yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu.

Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.

Mengapa kamu berlengah,

cuba mencari makanan yang lain..

Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.

Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan MENYESAL.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.

MENYAYANGIMU. .. MENGASIHIMU. ..

Mengapa kamu berlengah,

cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.

Terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN.

Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain..

Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL

Happy Father's day

You've seen me laugh
You've seen me cry
And always you were there with me
I may not have always said it
But thanks, I love you
Happy Father's Day

I want to tell you
How much you mean to me
Bcoz you are always
Thought about in such a special way,
And do so much to brighten any day.
Wish you a Happy Fathers Day.

Dad you are never wrong
The only time you are wrong
is when you think,
I forgot about you.
Love you Dad!
Have a grand Father's Day!

- Mary L Ivanca Michael

Kaamatan ??

KAAMATAN !
sana sini lamai do kaamatan ,

ogumu nodi moi pogium do poginuman 

sini sana do magavuk ..

kivaa do lihing , talak , tapai , beer om ogumu poh suvaii ..

haro nogi moi mogium smndak ..

ba manatau tasangkut om buli di jadikan sawo kah boh ..

KIHOIIII !
ogumu nogi do artis moii mamaramai tadau kaamatan iti ..

today until tomorrow kalapik 

nda sadar mau muli 

even otuong nodi kadii ,

balik rumah ampai2 , kalu yg sda bersuami/beristri 

istri/suami lodong2 sbab noh navuk ..

KOTOBIAN TADAU DO KAAMATAN TOUN 2011

DO TOINSANAI NGAWI DIKOYU 

That's why God give us tears .

To be sad is a beautiful thing .

To hold your friend close and shed a tear for them in their grief .

To say goodbye to that relative you never got to know 

and to hang your head in sorrow as the casket is carried off and to completely lose all control

of yourself and bawl as the one you truly love leaves you .

It's all really quite lovely when you give it some thought .
To feel such passion , such love that your willing to show an emotion

that can cause so much effect .
But when it's all over , when the tears just can't seem to come anymore 

and the pain begins to fade , it okey .
Smile cause you made it through and sometimes , thats the most we could ask for .

That's me ! You can't change me .. I am not pretty as well , not cute as well but thank you Lord you give everything !

That's ME ! Mary Ivanca Michael ..
You wanna change me ??

better you change yourself first ..

I'm an simple person who like to travelling , take picture and reading .

I like also like to editing picture and listening music .

As you know I'm sensitive person when people talk bad about my family 

and wanna know my personal .

I am happy go lucky person , love to smile and laugh .

Well you wanna know more about me ?? Be my closer friend .. :)

Thanks God !

Thanks God for everything you gave me !

Without your love I won't be here anymore ,

I know I always hurt you by my sin but you never leave me ,

Because you have say it " I never leave you , daughter "

" I love sinner but I hate sin " ..
Really thankful with you , Lord ..
Because you ,
I am who I am today !
My heart is rest only with you , Lord !
Everything you do is only for me !
Now I know you make it happen because you have reason ..
Even it is hurt but I know my life today is more than better !
I surrender in your hand Lord ,
Cause you know everything ..

- Mary Ivanca

Life is short !

Life is too short ,

grudges are a waste of perfect happiness ,

Laugh when you can ,

apologize when you should and let go what you can't wait change ,

Love deeply and forgive quickly ..

Take chances , give everything and have no regrets ,

Life is too short to be unhappy ,

You have to take the good with the bad ,

Smile when you're sad ,
Love what you got and always remember what you had .

Always forgive but never regret ,
People change and things go wrong 

But always remember LIFE goes ON ! 

                   - Mary Ivanca

Ragam Manusia

Entah la .. susa btul mau baca prngai mnusia skrg ..
dpan baik trlalu baik tp d blkang enta mnusia ka apa ..
sa cma tau diam dan diam dan let it be ..
heran knpa sa bkan mcm urg lain yg buli mmbls kjhtan mreka balik ..
huhuhuhu .. mcm sa seorg yg pngecut tp mamy sa pena blg 

" kita berdiam diri bukan kita pngecut tp tba msa nya kita juga akan melihat pnderitaan mreka yg Tuhan sndri yg mahu kita lihat sndri wlaupn bukan itu yg kita mau mreka dpat "..
Ya ! Mamy ada benar nya !
Yg sa tau cuma memendam jak ! hurmmmmm !
Nda perna sa buat pkara mcm ne tp sa pla yg kna mcm ne !
Sa mauuuuuuu bestfrennnnnnn sa ada d sniiiii .. huhuhu

bf ?? 

boy friendddddd atau yg special ???
teda la main2 bf2 dlm hdup sa ne .. 

smua pun kawan teda lebih teda kurang , smua pun sma ..

malas mau fikir tentang smua ne ..
bagi sa persahabatan lebih bermakna daripada percintaan ..
sekarang ne dalam fikiran cuma la mau kc maju diri dlu ..

mau buat parents bangga apa yang sa sdang blajar ..
mc jauh perjalanan hidup sa untuk apa mau RUSH kan ??
heeeee ~~

banyak org cakap kazen2 kau , kawan2 kau yg satu umur sda kawin
bila lg kau ???
sa ?? hahahha ! tunggu la betul2 hati sa bersedia untk mau bercinta
baru fikir smua ne ..
Masa depan tu penting , apa lagi punya family yg mengharapkan kejayaan kita ??
hahhaha ! sa sayang family sa lebih dari diri sa so akan buat apa jak utk family sa

gembira dan bahagia ..

Cukup susa mau cari lelaki yg menepati hati kita pda zaman skrg ..
makin moden lelaki pn makin suka mempermainkan prempuan2 ..
aikkk ?? pmpuan pn mcm tu ba tp sa bukan mcm tu ..
heeee ~~
apapun tunggu la hati sa bersedia .. heee

You're my best friend and true lover Jesus !

Have you heard of the One called Saviour?

Have you heard of His perfect love?

Have you heard of the One in Heaven?

Have you heard how He gave His Son?

Well I have found this love and I believe in the Son show me Your way

I believe in the one called Saviour

I believe He's the risen one

I believe that I'll live forever

I believe that the King will come

Because I have found this love and I believe in the Son show me Your way

Jesus You are my best friend and You will always be nothing will ever change that 

I believe in the One called Saviour

I believe He's the risen One

I believe that I'll live forever

I believe that the King will come

Because I have found this love and I believe in the Son show me Your way

Jesus You are my best friend and You will always be nothing will ever change that

Jesus You are my best friend and You will always be nothing will ever change that

Mum you're the great mum that I ever had !

 In DUSUN version :

Ina ,
Nakadadi oku id hiti pomogunan
Ika no minanahak doho do kanawahon
Ika no minanahak doho do sinuau
Miampai au momoduli do kada'an.
Ina ,
Pinosikul oku diya
Nonuan oku diya do kuririb
Nonuan oku diya do takanon
Gisom no mah do nakagayo oku.
Ina , 
Tinoguang nu oh koudipanan
Tinoguang nu oh totondos ngawi
Tinoguang nu oh kosindualan
Do manahak doho do kasanangan.
Ina , 
Au oku kaanu do monongkotohuod dika 
Nga dandi oku kumaa doid dika
Balajal oku do osonong-sonong
Gisom kahantoi oku.




M : IS FOR THE MILLION THINGS SHE GAVE ME
O : MEANS ONLY THAT SHE'S GROWING OLD
T : IS FOR THE TEARS SHE SHED TO SAVE ME
H : IS FOR HEART OF PUREST GOLD
E : IS FOR HER EYES , WITH LOVE-LIGHT SHINNING
R : MEANS RIGHT AND RIGHT SHE'LL ALWAYS BE .


                              LOT OF LOVE ,
                                    MARY IVANCA M .

To a life of love ~~

COME ... FOLLOW ME !
    '' THEN JESUS WENT UP A HILL AND CALLED THOSE WHOM HE WISHED ... AND THEY CAME TO HIM ...."

'" There lies the history of my life and the mistery of my vacation - Jesus did not call those who are worthy but those whom He wished ".

" Love gives me the key to my vocation
   In the Heart of my Mother the Church
   I shall be Love " ...

" My Heart has rest only in God " .
   ..... In Him the horizon are infinite.
   I will be all for God and He will be all for me ..."

My life incomplete without my besties !

              A friend is someone who shares with you ,
            A smile , a tear , a hand , a secret
           A friend is someone who really cares about you !
           A heart that understands ,
           A friend is someone who can make you happy and laugh .
           Without friends , my life is incomplete ,
           A true friend , a true friendship ,
          You are my faithful friend .
           A flower cannot bloom ,
           without sunshine ,
           Nor a friendship without compassion ..                                
           Friendship is a sweet responsibility ,
           Friendship is a chain of gold .
           Sweet is the journey on friendship's road ,            
            Friendship is the best of all life's treasures ..

Who is that Man ???

When I feel lost ,
Thou art present in my soul
fulfill the emptiness of my soul
illuminate all the dark
I'm quiet by Your love.
when I'm grieving ,
Thou present entertaining
I smiled and felt peaceful.
I cry when hurt ,
Thou present wound
tight embrace and caress
just the touch of Your love
I am happy and grateful laughter.
I just realized, you are a good Father
that never left me
while I was facing a severe life
because you are my faithful lover
Father of Jesus Christ my Lord ...

FRIEND

"Friend"
Some people take this word for granted
they use it to describe almost anyone
who touches their lives
But that's not fair
For not everyone fits this word.
It is easy to be a pal , a buddy
A companion or an acquantance
But to be a friend means so much more.
To be a friend means being trusted and trusting
Honest and dedicated ,
Supportive and available.
It means going strong with
your own life's work and plan
Yet reaching out to another when you're needed
And maybe even when you're not.
To be a friends is to be fun and fair
serious and silly.
To make the mundane exciting
The unexpected acceptable.
To be silent stronghold without being asked.
To feel happy for someone else's happiness
And to share the burden of sorrow ~~ !!